Opening Scene: The Smile That Avoids the Wound You sit in a church pew, heart quietly splintering. Maybe it’s the slow bruise of grief, or a chronic pain that has become your second skin. Maybe it’s the ache of loneliness—the kind that no one notices, but that hums beneath every hymn. Someone catches your expression. […]
For too long, I have sold my soul to someone else’s ideal. I have strived, performed, and hustled to be “good enough.” But perfectionism? It’s a lie. A lie that distances us from our shadow, the parts of ourselves we’ve been taught to suppress. The more we deny the shadow, the stronger it becomes. And […]
“It is a mind that breaks through everything, dragging my emotions with it—breaking through into the dark futures set before me, analyzing everything, producing every detail before the cold stench of reality hits: a defense mechanism gone haywire, too powerful for my sensitivity.” —Old Journal Entry I’ve been there—trying to work out what’s wrong […]
“I fixed limits for it and set its doors and bars in place.” —Job 38:6 (NIV) In the journey of personal development, it’s easy to feel invincible when we discover transformative ideas. Recognizing our potential can indeed be empowering. However, while it’s crucial to challenge limiting beliefs, we must also acknowledge and respect the real […]
Have you ever wondered how many thoughts pass through your mind each day? Estimates vary widely. Some studies suggest around 6,000 thoughts per day, while others claim numbers as high as 60,000 to 80,000. But let’s be real—trying to quantify our thoughts is like trying to count the grains of sand on a beach. The […]
“Curse these kak-covered lenses, for they manipulate the beautiful light! Curse this sadness, and curse more the tears not allowed to fall! Curse this beauty inside, to which in despair I curse, for I know not how to bless such beauty already too beautiful for my comprehension.” —Journal entry, 2016 Reading my own words from […]
From Grey to Radiance: The Journey of Unconditional Gratitude “Give thanks for everything.” —1 Thessalonians 5:18 (BLB) “I’d set up a single bed, a dim light to read the obscure and the new, something to forget what I have seen and done; every experience, memory, relationship, emotion of wonderment, deep gloom, fear of unknown feelings, […]
“Psychedelics are to the human mind what the telescope is to astronomy, or the microscope is to biology: a way of seeing what was previously hidden.” — Terence McKenna I’ve often found myself standing at the edge of my own inner abyss, sensing shadows lurking beneath the surface. It’s a place we seldom dare to […]