“I guess we all wrestle – good and bad, motivation and despair, life and death, fulfilling, and the easy. I swing between them all, but somehow keep my actions facing the wind, with gritted teeth and determination” – Old Journal Entry I see it everywhere: striving. “I need to be this.” “I need to do […]
“The sea is terrifying, especially from the perspective of the seashore, where land meets sea.” — Old Journal Entry I’ve journeyed through both realms—the uplifting world of positive psychology and the profound depths of shadow work. Self-help literature often leans heavily on positivity. It’s catchy, easy to digest, highly marketable, and undeniably vital. But I’ve […]
“It is a very deep ache that something is not right—something is crooked, out of place, or missing altogether. It is the feeling that makes me breathe shallow and writhe deeply—a relentless focus on a whole that has been cut and left unfulfilled.” —Old Journal Entry What is it that makes me feel guilty just […]
“I have had doubts, doubts of nearly everything.” —Old Journal Entry I’ve been a ‘religious’ person all my life, and it feels like a relief to admit my lack of faith. One day it’s strong; the next, it vanishes like smoke. I’m convinced that if I had enough of this elusive substance called faith, […]
“It is a mind that breaks through everything, dragging my emotions with it—breaking through into the dark futures set before me, analyzing everything, producing every detail before the cold stench of reality hits: a defense mechanism gone haywire, too powerful for my sensitivity.” —Old Journal Entry I’ve been there—trying to work out what’s wrong […]
“I fixed limits for it and set its doors and bars in place.” —Job 38:6 (NIV) In the journey of personal development, it’s easy to feel invincible when we discover transformative ideas. Recognizing our potential can indeed be empowering. However, while it’s crucial to challenge limiting beliefs, we must also acknowledge and respect the real […]
Have you ever wondered how many thoughts pass through your mind each day? Estimates vary widely. Some studies suggest around 6,000 thoughts per day, while others claim numbers as high as 60,000 to 80,000. But let’s be real—trying to quantify our thoughts is like trying to count the grains of sand on a beach. The […]
“Curse these kak-covered lenses, for they manipulate the beautiful light! Curse this sadness, and curse more the tears not allowed to fall! Curse this beauty inside, to which in despair I curse, for I know not how to bless such beauty already too beautiful for my comprehension.” —Journal entry, 2016 Reading my own words from […]
From Grey to Radiance: The Journey of Unconditional Gratitude “Give thanks for everything.” —1 Thessalonians 5:18 (BLB) “I’d set up a single bed, a dim light to read the obscure and the new, something to forget what I have seen and done; every experience, memory, relationship, emotion of wonderment, deep gloom, fear of unknown feelings, […]
“Give thanks for everything. This is God’s will for you.” —1 Thessalonians 5:18 “My collar is coffee-stained from pursuing time, my mind is city-stained from a long day of pursuing purpose. Not only has London lost its glamour, so has everything mankind has built. Yes, Dr. Johnson, so what if I am tired of life?” […]
